Peeber

Peeber,
I know you tried hard to be here for me and I am truly grateful. I realized last night that I was being selfish and you needed to go. But thank you for helping me through this. Please don't ever feel bad for me because you gave me the best memories. I know I will never have a cat like you. You were with me when we moved out for the first time. I know you hated that place. I'm so glad we moved again to the other apartment. You and I were both happier there. You were with me when we moved in with John. You were with me after my accident, and for my marriage. I loved being home with you when I was pregnant with Syd. When you got lost for those 3 days, I cried and cried. Mom and I were talking tonight about how joyous it was when we found you and how happy you were to be back in my arms. I can't imagine having my babies without you. You were up for the nighttime feedings as much as I was. You came when they cried, you came when I cried. You really did help me. I am sad that you wont be there in the morning to help me yell at the kids to get their clothes on. You were so good at keeping us on time and the kids really loved having you help. Nighttime for me will be the hardest. Helping me bathe the children, get their PJ's on, and read them books was so fun for all of us. Tonight, I missed you during story time. I wanted to feel you nudging the book but I didn't. That is when I realized that I will be raising them without your help. I'm so sad about that. But, you have made me a better mom Peeps. You are my first baby and I enjoyed spoiling you as much as I did. Thank you Peeps, I owe you so much. You have been my best friend and I have felt your love more then anyone else's. You couldn't have made your love more clear. I think that is why this is so hard.
Please be around me. I want you with me forever. I love you more then you will ever know. I will be happy to see you again when I join you in heaven. Please be there when I get there, I will be looking for you.
Your Mother and Best Friend,
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Stephanie

Stephanie Leonard